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Leap of Faith and Writing through Chaos

Date: July 17th, 2019, Posted by mollie

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Dear readers

Many people have a romantic vision of the writer’s life. They imagine us creating our stories and our art in beautiful writing rooms, or looking out to mesmerizing landscapes, secluded from the realities, and sometimes, the harshness of life.

They don’t consider mundane things like how we cook, clean, run errands—or worse, deal with family crises or dramas.

Some successful authors don’t have children, they don’t have a partner, or husband or a wife. They devote themselves, seemingly, entirely to their craft. This was the case for many male artists, including Leonardo da Vinci.  But also women, like Coco Chanel.

Other writers who have happy home lives often have a white knight or significant other who helps them focus on their writing, or artistic pursuits, by taking care of domestic chores or financial concerns,  while their ‘writing other ‘ enjoys or earns money from their craft.

For women, in particular, trying to balance motherhood, domestic realities, and perhaps even the breakdown of dissolution of their relationships, it can be difficult to focus on the work at hand or to maintain belief in your dreams. This is especially the case if your white knight does a runner or becomes a warlord.

Whether, you are an artist, photographer, dancer, or work in some other creative career, these less traditional roles don’t always reward you with the steady income you need. For Indie and traditionally published authors in particular—with the advent of Amazon Kindle and other online publishing and other sales platforms—many books have become so cheap.

Some authors offer free books on Amazon, for example, as part of their sales ‘loss-leading’ strategy. Competition has become so fierce. As a result, many authors are working longer and longer hours. Which begs the question—how do we find time for love and life?

As artists, we are driven to express ourselves. We have to. As the psychologist, Dr. Jordan Peterson says, “the artist must create, or she dies.”

A friend of mine told me recently how after many years raising a daughter on her own, and living many more years without a loving relationship, she made the decision to pursue her dream of becoming a writer when her daughter left home.  She decided that writing would become her great love.

She began studying the craft but gave up her dream when her fiancé (at the time) ghosted her. That experience had been devastating, but more so, when, some years later, trapped in a series of unfulfilling jobs and struggling to pay her bills, she realized that had she persevered, she could have already published many books and earning a living in a job she loved.

Rather than write through chaos, instead, she had found a job that would enable her to earn an immediate income, but offered no long-term security.

She decided to again pursue her dream and become a writer on the side and work towards making this her primary source of income. She was partway through making this new side-hustle career lucrative when she met another seemingly dashing hero. Everything was beautiful in the first flush of romance when they first started dating.

Last year, to her horror she realized she was about to make the same mistake. Her new partner resented the time she spent working on her writing projects and sulkily said, “you’re not spending enough time with me.” He began to resent the fact that her writing wasn’t earning much money.

“I was faced with a choice. Writing or love,” she told me.

She knew this time she couldn’t repeat the mistakes of the past. She knew this time she had to make a different choice.

“All I need,” she said, quoting much-loved author J.K. Rowling, “Is to be able to sit down in peace.”

She tried to tell her resentful partner that all his ranting and raging and arguing with her was really taking a toll on her writing.

And she wanted her partner to be her white knight and honor the commitment he had made to her that he would support her. “Men want all,” she lamented bitterly when he didn’t follow through on his promise, “they want a whore in the bedroom and a woman who wears the trousers when it comes to finances.”

She envied the women who were financially protected by their men. But then she read stories that showed her that sometimes a man’s shelter was a gilded cage. Recently she read the autobiography of Queen Noor of Jordan. Born in America she had trained to become an architect and had done very well in her career before she met the King of Jordan.

King Hussein made it clear that there was no room for an architect wife in the regal role, and reluctantly she conceded. In her memoir, she recounts how she married for love, not any material or financial advantage. She shares how she struggled to give up her financial independence—but he was insistent.

Queen Noor tried to talk about her Western life and the things she missed, and he replied dismissively, “I really do not want to know.”

Frustrated, Queen Noor turned to other projects that would support her husband’s career. She chose ones that would give her some glimmer of purpose.

In her memoir, she wrote,

“He was so sure about our future life together that his confidence was infectious. His unfailing conviction was beginning to win me once more. I had an incomplete picture of what the future might be, but I knew that no matter what happened, that I would always have my work and the contribution I could make to the country to see me through. The King had let me know in so many words that he was offering me a partnership. That realization too, help me make up my mind. I had a job to do for a country I already loved, and an extraordinary man as a partner together we could make a difference.”

My friend, sighed, “My partner used to jokingly call me his queen. He too offered an incomplete picture about what our life might look like when we co-joined our finances and moved away from my family to the other side of the country. He turned out to be a tyrant,” she said, sadly.

 

What if, I wondered—it wasn’t peace she needed after all?

 

What if

As my friend was telling me her story, I began wondering how instead of being distracted by all this emotional drama which was preventing her from writing she could actually use the experience constructively—writing, a story within the story as the drama unfolded.

What if, I wondered—it wasn’t peace she needed after all?  What if everything that happened, the environment in which she found herself, was exactly what she needed?

What if a different sort of writing emerged from that? Another genre, perhaps. Something darker with an angry female protagonist. Recently The Guardian ran an article called, Mad women: how angry sisterhood is taking over the small screen.

What if, I wondered, instead of the light, bouncy,  ‘everything is beautiful’ love stories she was struggling to write, she worked with what was showing up in her life.

“What if you turned yourself to something deeper with more angst,” I encouraged. “It might just be the career rescue you need, and you’ll heal yourself with writing in the process.”

I told her about something similar I had been through many years ago and a story I had written called The Lighthouse. My male friend at the time (we’re going back quite some years) read it and loved it. Remember he thought he was reading about a lighthouse not him!

Here’s a wee excerpt: I am about to release this as The Lightkeeper’s Lover (Subscribe to this blog and my newsletter if you’d like to know when The Lightkeeper’s Lover is released).

 

The woman wandering the cliff tops grew weary from her restlessness and sat, weeping, at the base of the lighthouse. She wore the cloak of a betrayed lover, looking lost and forlorn, wondering whether one day love would come to stay. Through teary eyes she looked to the heavens, beseeching: “why hath thou forsaken me?” The lighthouse, unaware of her presence, stood tall and solid, gazing sadly out to sea. Grieving he searched vainly for his lover. Waiting. Waiting for the lover never meant to be.

Two souls lonely in their loss, united by the yearning for love that would stay, remained unaware of each other and saw not that which lay within the distance of touch. The heavens sought to intervene – orchestrating the elements to throw them further together.

Violet-gray clouds swirled angrily – gaining momentum. Faster and faster. The woman stumbled to her feet as the wind rose. Finally noticing the presence of the lighthouse, she ran to its door and tried to open it.  The handle, stiff from lack of use, refused to succumb to her touch.

She persisted – pounding on the cold, steel door, determined in her knowledge and belief that, despite the cold exterior, inside it would be warm. The lighthouse stood firm, unyielding. And yet his curiosity was aroused.  Secretly he bent to see her, looking with soft, kindly eyes – wanting to let her in, yet fearful of the returning feelings.  Fearful of the stirring in his heart. Fearful of her.  What if she came in, settled, filled the house with her scent, her song – filling the void which for so long he had denied existed.

“You have a gift, especially when emotion is involved,” my male friend told me.

I wrote his feedback down in the little ‘writing feedback’ journal that I still update to this day. It always encourages me to read the kind things my readers have said about my writing. Especially if I am having a bad day.  I still go to this little notebook sometimes when I think I can’t write or I don’t believe that I have any talent, or I feel like an imposter. It’s a great comfort to me.

 

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Mine your emotions

Artists have mined their negative emotions and feelings for years—often to lucrative effect.

“I’ve been feeling this sorrow all my life,” wrote UK rock band Genesis. They shapeshifted through different genres throughout their career. The band moved from folk music to progressive rock in the 1970s, before moving towards pop at the end of the decade.

“In the desert, you can remember your name because there ‘ain’t no one to give you no pain,” wrote America in their song entitled, Horse with No Name.

Many writing experts encourage us to amp up the emotion. In my writing shed, I have a quote written in chalk from one of my favorite romance writers Emma Darcy (actually this is a pen name for a husband and wife couple. She/they wrote  ‘a how-to’ guide to writing romance in which they advised, “Put as much emotion onto the page that you think you’ll need– and then double it.”

Recently, the UK songstress, Adele has announced her divorce, and her fans are delighted!? Something feels ghoulish about this to me. I’m sure it is a deeply upsetting time for her and her son.

“Divorce will inspire Adele’s fourth album which producers are keen to see,” news media reports quickly proclaimed. Whether you agree or disagree with the lack of empathy for her plight, there’s no doubt that heartbreak has inspired all her award-winning hits.

Back in 2011, the superstar said of her creative process: “When I’m happy, I ain’t writing songs – I’m out having a laugh.“If I ever get married, it’ll be, ‘Darling, I need a divorce. It’s been three years – I’ve got a record to write’.”

Insiders say Adele is throwing herself back into work to get over the break-up. Work can be a positive addiction that heals. Something touched on in the books, Mind Your Drink, The Joy of Sobriety and also in Control Alcohol, Discover Freedom, Find Happiness and Change Your Life—it’s a poignant reminder of alternative sources of healing for those frustrated creatives or people who may be tempted to hit the bottle.

Because an artist must feel. And a great artist mines those feelings, like a diamond hunter mines mud until they find the alchemy that sparkles.

The choice, dear readers, is to choose love. The love that sustains you. If love between a man and a woman fails you, the love of your metier will always sustain you. Perhaps not financially, perhaps not immediately, but the love of your work will save you. And the right partner for you will know that. They won’t resent your work, they will love that you are inspired and deeply happy.

And if the relationship doesn’t survive—you’ll have plenty of material to write about.

Oh, and do you know my friend that I wrote about, the one with the warlord. Her man transformed into the White Knight. He went from being stressed out and resentful to being totally encouraging.

She started a feedback journal like the one I keep and the first sentences in it were those he had said to her,

“My job is to protect you so you can tell your story like no one else ever will.”

Yay, she got her happy ending after all.

Live an exciting passionate life, dear friends. Remember that we are surrounded by an invisible world—one that is sometimes polluted, toxic and harmful (with suspended particles, light gases, heavy metals, sun radiation, and peoples moods)….and one that is beautiful, healing, and healthy (infused with magic, alchemy, and spiritual guides).

Fight for your dreams! Give in to your passions regularly—giving yourself permission is the biggest gift.

As my masseuse reminded me recently, “Don’t let life get in the way.”

 

Perhaps this inspirational quote I have on the wall of my writing shed will speak to you as much as it does me, 

“Always picture succeeding. Never let it fade. Always picture success, no matter how badly things are going in the moment.” ~ Jessie Burton, author of The Muse

Much love

 

p.s.

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If you’re going through a tough time, you may enjoy my wee poem. It’s inspired by an old oak tree in my garden. I also wrote about an inspirational magical tree in my love story called  Love Me Forever—download a free sample or purchase here

 

The Oak Tree

The oak tree grows toward the light

the gnarly cypress towers above

pushing against the oak, stunting its might

the oak stands its ground and grows proudly,

its roots arch and spread and burrow

down, down, down it grows

down, down, it goes

down, down, down it reaches

seeking water

seeking nourishment

seeking Mother Earth

 

up, up, up it reaches

up, up, up it goes

up, up, up it grows

its branches arch and spread and borrows

borrows from the energy of the earth and sky

borrows from the whispers of the wind

the song of the birds

the comforting touch of those just like her

 

and she grows where she can

and she stands her ground

and she flourishes and thrives

and lets go of the parts of her that die

 

And she knows

yes she knows

she really knows

that what she releases is past

and there will be a time to weep

a time to cry

a time to say goodbye

and she will rest

she will sleep

and then one day,

again, she shall meet

the little seeds of hope so sweet

and the tiny buds of dormant growth

which, in a whisper unfurl 

and the growth will be new

and the growth will be vital

and the growth will delight

 

This is nature

This is natural

This is how magic happens

 

And who knows what tomorrow will bring

Every day is another opportunity

To start again

And to be better.

 

P.S. Subscribe to this blog and my newsletter if you’d like to know when The Lightkeeper’s Lover or any of my other books are released.

 

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Bride of Gold

Date: July 17th, 2019, Posted by webstudio

When a lonely young American woman inherits a painting she discovers her whole life was a lie. Desperate for the truth, she goes in search of her true identity.

The painting is her only clue. But everyone is determined to keep its secret past repressed, including Vitaliano Rossi, the Italian gold tycoon. Unnaturally suspicious of her motives, he wants the painting- and Alex- vanquished. How can she discover who she really is and convince him that his love means more to her than gold?

Three women. Three lives. And the lies that bind them. Why is everyone afraid of the truth?

Set amongst the stunning backdrop of New Zealand’s South Island.

If you clean romance and sweet love stories, set against a sensuous backdrop of art you’ll love Bride of Gold.

PRAISE FOR BRIDE OF GOLD

an engaging and passionate read

“An engaging and passionate read. Once again Mollie Matthews delivers a story full of passion and makes me keep turning the pages. Mollie’s writing is engaging and I didn’t want the story to end! I’m looking forward to the next one!”

~ Alli 

had to keep reading

“An awesome read. Just love Mollie Mathews’ style. There’s a good story as well as the romance, the passion and the pain that goes with deep love. Just had to keep reading – abandoned the chores until I had reached the end. More please Mollie.”

~ Rae

so much passion and fighting for love

“What a wonderful book Bride of Gold was. I just couldn’t put it down, but glad to read it in the nights. How wonderful you have written this love story with so much passion and fighting for love and acknowledgment one can give. Thanks once again to have been able to download it and enjoy it with so much eagerness to just keep on reading. Keep up your good work in writing. Such wonderful loved filled clean romantic books. Full of passion, love, and tenderness. Words can’t describe the real way I found this book. Fantastic.”

~Istella

I loved, loved, loved this book

“I loved, loved, loved this book.  It had me laughing, crying and gasping following the back and forth between Alexandra and Vitali!! I now want to go to New Zealand even more than I did before.”

~ Glenda

beautifully descriptive writing

“I very much enjoyed reading this book. The author had beautifully descriptive writing. I could easily picture the scenery she described from Gold Ridge Station. Both characters had pasts that held major hurts for them and influenced how they came together. I really enjoyed Alex’s spunk and that she was determined to be a partner with Vitali. She was not one to quit no matter what, and I really enjoyed watching her heart open up during the story.”

~ Alethia

To grab your copy from Amazon, click here>>getBook.at/BrideofGold

Paperback, hardback, and audio from all good bookstores

Enjoy other full-length contemporary romances by Mollie Mathews:

Married by Christmas; Flight of Passion; Claimed by The Sheikh

Fall in love with these contemporary heroes and heroines trying to mend their hearts, overcome their fears and find true love—read the other standalone books my Mollie to discover the friends and family who tumble into a once-in-a-lifetime-happily-ever-after affair of the heart themselves. 5-star reviews

Why is everyone so afraid of the truth?

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Married by Christmas

Date: July 17th, 2019, Posted by webstudio

What if the person who is so, so, so wrong for you is really so, so, so right, but you’re too afraid to give love a chance?

The billionaire romance that defied the odds. Two opposites unite in a fun and frisky heart-warming sweet romance.

Last Christmas, art therapist Issy Riley was jilted by her fiancé. This Christmas she’s running away. A week with a client on his private Fijian island promises to save her from cheating men and the London festive season. But when the client turns out to be a gorgeous and magnetic Italian billionaire, he threatens her resolve to never again trust her heart to the wrong man.

The one thing Max and Issy agree on: they are as wrong for each other as wrong gets. He’s a workaholic playboy who believes emotion is a weakness. She’s a romantic who yearns for a happily ever after.

Milan fashion house leader and avowed bachelor Massimiliano Balforni has no intention of taking a vacation, despite his sister’s insistence that he subject himself to an art therapy retreat following a minor heart attack. With an important collection due, he intends to fire his therapist and work, instead. But the determined and striking Issy gives his heart palpitations of a far more dangerous kind.

As the tropical heat soars, they discover that in this battle between work and play, resistance only fuels attraction—and sometimes two wrongs make a very passionate right.

Set in two beautiful paradises—Milano, Italy and the tropical Pacific islands of Fiji.

PRAISE FOR MARRIED BY CHRISTMAS

an instantly gripping dynamic

“Mollie Mathews has created an instantly gripping dynamic between Issy and Massimilliano that beautifully blends their animosity and their undeniable attraction, making the tension soar.”

~ Laura, Harlequin Mills and Boon

Mollie is just such a good writer

“I really enjoy Mollie’s style of writing – it’s in the 21st century and relates to every woman who has been trashed by a bloke. The abandonment issues experienced by Max are also so relevant to our current world, so many have been emotionally stunted or abandoned. This is a story that resonates with me and I could not put it down. Mollie is just such a good writer with enormous appeal in her story – an excellent read on a rainy day.”

~ Rae Waterhouse

perfect holiday reading

“I couldn’t get away for a holiday this year but was lucky enough to stumble across Mollie Mathews book Married by Christmas. With inviting backdrops of Italy and Fiji to set the scene and passionate but angst-ridden leading characters, it makes the perfect holiday reading.” ~ Laura Virgo

gives me hope that I will meet my Prince

“Beautiful. Resonated in my soul, gives me hope that I will meet my Prince one day and he will love me for who I am.”

~ Amazon Review

a gorgeous escapist read

“A gorgeous escapist read. Loved the flirty spark between Max and Issy, and as for the location … sigh … I wanna be there. I will definitely be looking out for other books by this author. Recommended.”

~ Amazon Review

Buy this book through the links below…

To grab your copy from Amazon, click here>>getbook.at/MarriedByChristmas

Paperback, hardback, and audio from all good bookstores

Enjoy other full-length contemporary romances by Mollie Mathews:

Bride of GoldMarried by Christmas; Flight of Passion; Claimed by The Sheikh

Fall in love with these contemporary heroes and heroines trying to mend their hearts, overcome their fears and find true love—read the other standalone books my Mollie to discover the friends and family who tumble into a once-in-a-lifetime-happily-ever-after affair of the heart themselves. 5-star reviews

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Love Me Forever

Date: July 10th, 2019, Posted by webstudio

Viticulturist Joey Harper’s organic vineyard is under siege from neighboring landowners with chemical sprays, wanting to turn a fast profit, and someone purchasing large tracts of land under incredible secrecy.

But Joey’s not someone who dwells on her own troubles. She has only one wish—following the still-birth of her sister’s first child, she prays her much loved younger sister may conceive again.

Using her inherited gift for magic, she enlists the aid of the ancient walnut tree which towers majestically over her organic vineyard. What she doesn’t realize is that her one wish, begets another, and her unselfish desire for her sister’s happiness sends love to her—in the form of a most unsuitable and irresistible admirer.

Venetian winemaking tycoon Tomasso Rivetti has it all: a loving family, good looks, and a considerable fortune. When he ventures Down Under to New Zealand, underneath his apparently perfect world, cracks begin to appear…and no one is more surprised than Tomasso when the billionaire lifestyle he takes for granted is turned upside down by a chance encounter.

But despite Tomasso’s determined pursuit of Joey’s affection, her broken heart remains closed—to protect herself and her vineyard from a terrible threat.

Distance keeps her safe. But as a final battle draws close, Joey and Tomasso are drawn irresistibly together. And while they succumb to the heat between them, they both know there can be no tomorrow…

If you enjoy stories with a touch of magic and fantasy and with that so important happy ending, you’ll love this powerful new love story.

PRAISE FOR LOVE ME FOREVER

a delightful mystical romance

Love Me Forever has a lovely mystical feel about it, with deep longings being experienced by the characters. A delightful mystical romance with a dream-like quality, fraught with all the longings of Joey’s heart. When she plants her wish for her sister beneath the walnut tree, she doesn’t realize that the longings of her own heart have been heard.

When a stranger steps up to her in the vineyard it is the beginning of healing for her own heart. Well written with deeply emotive feelings, this book is part of a series and ends on a cliffhanger.”

~ Margaret W.

very beautiful story

“Beautifully written. The author’s vivid and descriptive writing style pulled me into a world I never wanted to leave.  Very beautiful stories!”

~ Hugh Harrison

love and magic all together in this lovely story

“Love and magic all together in this lovely story – definitely one to gladden your heart and make you believe, that we all need a little magic in our lives.”

~ Sandy Johnsonn

To grab your copy from Amazon, click here>>viewBook.at/LoveMeForever

Paperback, hardback, and audio from all good bookstores

If this is the first time you have read a Passion Down Under short story, you can easily read each book as a standalone.

Enjoy other full-length contemporary romances by Mollie Mathews:

Bride of GoldMarried by Christmas; Flight of Passion

Fall in love with these contemporary heroes and heroines trying to mend their hearts, overcome their fears and find true love—read the other standalone books my Mollie to discover the friends and family who tumble into a once-in-a-lifetime-happily-ever-after affair of the heart themselves. 5-star reviews

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Flight of Passion

Date: July 10th, 2019, Posted by webstudio

Devastatingly handsome Oliver Hart is used to getting what he wants. Single, thirty-five, and a committed bachelor he plays by his own rules. On a personal quest to catch a rare, elusive and very valuable butterfly he’s unwillingly distracted by former flame Ruby Diaz — a woman who callously abandoned him eight years earlier. When he decides he wants to reclaim the beauty as his own — in his mind, it’s as good as done.

But Ruby’s not his for the taking. Promised to the son of a wealthy landowner she refuses to succumb to his charms. On a quest to save her family land Ruby knows she must put duty first and silence the passionate stirrings of her heart. But Oliver doesn’t make things easy for her. He’s not taking no for an answer.

Risking everything to help the woman he loves to gain her freedom, Oliver entangles himself in an emotional net that alters his life forever. As he sacrifices his own selfish pursuit to help Ruby he realizes that you may be able to own something but you can never own someone – especially the women you love.

Sharing a wee excerpt and insights behind Flight of Passion on my YouTube channel.

PRAISE FOR FLIGHT OF PASSION

tantalizes your senses

This is a well-written book that tantalizes your senses. Will Oliver be able to convince Ruby that she loves him enough to disobey her family? Can they find each other when all seems lost? An excellent book that I highly recommend. It will have you laughing with joy and crying with sadness.

~ Marie Fraser

a beautifully scripted story

Mollie Mathews has written a beautifully scripted story of two people wildly attracted to each other but too constrained by family expectations to allow themselves to commit. When they meet again after eight years can they move beyond old patterns of behavior or are they doomed to always want, but never have?

~ Jane Whitmeyer

a touching and heart-warming book

“This book is a carefully crafted, truly original story. Mollie’s wonderfully descriptive narrative paints a picture in which it is easy to lose oneself—I really felt like I had been to Mexico by the time I had finished. Her butterfly theme echoes throughout the book both literally and figuratively. The main characters, Oliver and Ruby, are each conflicted in their own ways. Despite facing challenges, both ultimately find the strength to work through their difficulties to emerge better people, and most importantly, triumph over adversity together. A touching and heart-warming book, well worth a read.”

~ Cathy Rioran

Buy this book through the links below…

To grab your copy from Amazon, click here>>getBook.at/FlightofPassion

Paperback, hardback, and audio from all good bookstores

To grab your copy from Apple, Nook, and other great bookstores, click here>>https://books2read.com/u/bpp0LJ

The audio version of this book is also available from all online bookstores and also libraries

AUDIBLE

US

https://www.audible.com/pd/Flight-of-Passion-Audiobook/B0874YCXVL

UK

https://www.audible.co.uk/pd/Flight-of-Passion-Audiobook/B0874X8TGX

AU

https://www.audible.com.au/pd/Flight-of-Passion-Audiobook/B0874Y3V2T

KOBO

https://www.kobo.com/nz/en/audiobook/flight-of-passion-4

Enjoy other full-length contemporary romances by Mollie Mathews:

Bride of GoldMarried by Christmas; Claimed by The Sheikh

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